Limbo
What happens to a dream deferred?
Does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore—
And then run?
My life,lately, feels like Langston Hughes knew me personally, like I knew him as a child. Everything in my life is so different then what i pictured it to be if you asked me a year ago what i thought it would be. Different friendships, relationships, standards, obstacles., just everything is not what i wanted and what i think should be happening. Don’t get me wonrg some of the things are for the better but what i really need right now is to wake up formthis fake world everyone around me seems to live in, like, maybe I am exaggerating, maybe i shouldnt be here. I always wonder if i had made one single decision differently, would my life be different, would i have different friends. It is like in the novel, The Five People You Meet in Heaven, Eddie didn’t know he influenced those peoples lives so much, but one little decision he made effected someone in someway, even someone he didn’t know. I just wonder if maybe thats how my life is. It makes me happy to think that i influnce someone’s life for the better, but what if its not, what if i make a decision that ruins their lives forever and not even know it. I always wonder, and maybe my life will draw its course and everything will be okay, but right now I’m in limbo, for Lord knows how long.
